New Beginnings

2/4/08

About two weeks ago I was walking to church (in over two years only a few people have given me a ride)and a lady asked if she could give me a ride. I said yes. Upon going to church with her and informing her that I was living in a house with no water, heat, food, clothes, etc.. she started crying. Then said I should really come to church with her, because being that it was her second time giving me a ride God must want us to have a relationship. Being desperate, I conseded, went to church with her, where she and one of my old neighbors took me to a room entitled, "NEW BEGINNINGS". Once inside the room, there was a picture of a "weapon" and they continued to pray. One of the things that let me know that God was in it was that one of the lady's turned out the light. When they prayer was over, I asked why had she turned out the light and she said because God had told her to. You see, they=???put a camera in my eye, thus anything I see, they see. The night before God had told me to tell them what he was going to do to them (they also have cameras where I live). So when they saw the weapon as I was viewing it and then the lights went out; it was God sending them a messsage. And being that they have a camera in my eye; therefore no PRIVACY for me; like those in jail; will to the best of my ability write (covered by a paper over the pen) about things/views.

Personally I keep trying to figure out what I did wrong; why I have gone through all the hell, I have gone through and how to make it stop!. But in the meantime (because somethings are out of a person's control-the people in Katrina in the SUPER DOME could do nothing but ride it out); until those in charge decide to change, I'm stuck or forced to be a crook. But until that time, will be writing concerning some issues; really hoping for a New Beginning. I think the point of the weapon was to make me to start thinking about things if it were really a real weapon. (I guess it is all over me that I am fed up with b=eing abused, my demeanor must say that I am tired and prepared to give back what they have given to me-minus the illusionary deaths that they keep putting me through(which they feel and thinks gives them permission to control me and take over my life). My problem is what to do to stop people from abusing me for (30+) years. But people keep telling me to be nice; never say anything about pursuing the people who abuse me being punished. STRANGE!

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