Second Chance/Can someone please stop the abuse??

2/23/08

Being that earlier today, I was almost hit by a small black pickup truck like the one that they murdered my baby brother in, writing this is truly a miracle, really anything I write is a miracle. The driver stepped on the gas peddle as I was crossing the street. Since they have cameras on all the corners the incident is on camera. So please know and understand that if anything happens to me; it is not, I repeat, not an accident. The community leaders and church leaders have been asked for help in W.-S., North Carolina. Their response has been either to increase the torment or offer options that if I want to live my only options to live first is to be old before my time(which they are enhancing everyday at S- club-having me standing beside large flat freezer everyday-mind control-subliminal message), a prostitutue, an invalid, gay, and here recently retarded; all extremely negative; being that I was born healthy,been identified as being a genius, have two academic degrees and some say have the gift of prophecy. Some social skills may be lacking concerning gossiping. Never could get there, but it seems that is how this city operates. Or maybe I should say that the only ones allowed to socialize without strenuous societal control are those who do so either with no objective in mind or they must assist in dogging out a person that the community says is to be dogged out. Either of the two are allowed to advance in the city. At the present moment, I don't fit either.

Just left a situation in which after my father was methodically medically slowly removed from the face of the earth in my face (shortly after the fact they said that medical doctors maybe work in a group of clusters to do what they did with the planes on September 11, 2001); a guy approached me to date me. Long story short, he is one of the ones that they have allowed to have a social life. Anyway come to find out that he has a learning disability, but socializes very well, better than most people. Went to where he plays basketball, in which when I first met him, after he approached me, someone went after the girl he was dating. But before he had approached me, another guy had approached me, but I turned him down. So while the second guy was trying to date me, the first guy went after his girl friend and ended up marrying her. In the meantime, something/someone got in the middle of me and the second guy's relationship, his employers who wanted the relationship to end.

Long story short, the second guy was upset and concerned because he thought that his first girlfriend was in danger, which at the time, I thought it was just him over reacting. But after leaving the gym this morning, he is probably right. All of them(his ex-girlfriend, the first and second guy that approached me) were on the gym floor playing basketball, with the offer being made for me to participate (which would have been the equivalent of my agreeing to accept being classified as retarded/socially retarded). Originally when what happened after my father passed,was that the first guy was sent to me and since I turned him down, they sent him to the second guy's girlfriend (he was trying to play the field). Thus if he the second guy wanted to keep his ex-girlfriend safe(he has a good heart); then he would have to abuse me emotionally and psychologically; therefore if I agreed to joining them, that would be my plight in life-he would have to abuse me anytime I came around him- but AT LEAST I would be alive. And being classified as retarded(which I am not to sure I am not at this point because of exposure to all of the negative situations and abuse related to fighting and striving to overcome the established community societal controls for African Americans that FORCE people to accept either a negative situation or else)would put me in a category where most people wouldn't receive or consider what was said by me,especially concerning understanding concepts and societal controls which are going to increase and multiply like crazy, especially if Obama gets into office and especially for African Americans. And the way in which the scenero was suppose to go was that I join the group, the second guy ends up with his ex-girlfriend, and I end up with her husband(the first guy who approached me) who if I am not mistaken, married her to get control of the second guy so that he could have me.

Read article about "Societal Control: The goals of "politically correct" by Matthew Ryan in which the statement was made, "The War on Terror is not a confrontation with people of a certain race, but rather, people with a certain extremist ideology." No truer words were ever written or spoken. So just imagine being considered an extremist because of the desire to work, not want handouts, not wanting to be a prostitute,an invalid, or be old before your time, not wanting to be gay or anything else that is negative. As Matthew Ryan said, "The war on Terror is not a confrontation with people of a certain race", which is why Obama is on the scene. Obama has already stated that he is not an African American, which means he has a different ideology than African Americans. Which means that if he gets into office he will not be there to represent African Americans, but will be there as a form of "Societal control."

Therefore if true African Americans try to resist the negative forms of societal control, meaning if they resist being a prostitute, an invalid, gay, retarded, then they will be classified as being extremist, which will mean that they will be put in the category of a person with "a certain extremist ideology". Meaning that they have problems submitting to being forced into negative social roles. On the other hands, African Americans such as Obama who are allowed to progress in life, will be allowed to thrive up to a point. That they realize and understand that they have no more privilege than any other true African American, meaning they don't control nothing. Obama will be allowed to appear as if he has power as Oprah is, but he will not have real power, only what is allowed, such as the way they did with those in charge of slave cabins. Imagine having a leader in control of a country where your desire is have permission to attack,etc. the people that you don't like or consider them a nuisance, or worst. That would be the ultimate societal control, to have a cover for every thing that you wanted to do.

So people will know, my mindset since high school which has been a few decades ago, has always been that I am rich, wealthy, prosperous, healthy walking in the fullness of God and the days of barely making it is over. Always has been my mindset, never knew that I would have to constantly fight society trying to give me a negative mindset and that to not accept their mindset could be the equivalent of being FORCED to accept the mindset or else. Everyday on the bus, they have males with skull heads on the bus(bus drivers participate), which gives a person their mindset, they constantly think in terms of skulls and as everyone knows, skulls are usually not related to life and living. It has taken me over thirty plus years (of documenting situations in which negative societal controls have been tried to be forced on me by those who help control society) to ask, "Where is the United States of America that I learned about growing up, the land of the free, home of the brave. Nobody told me you would have to fight just to be classified as a person with rights to deny accepting negative societal controls." And being the negative societal controls that have been tried to be applied to situations in my life have been documented over thirty plus years, it hasn't just started. In every situation, the goal has been to FORCE me to react in a negative manner, thereby putting me in a situation to be forgiven, thus assistance would be needed (somebody would make MONEY, after I reacted in a negative way; key word AFTER the fact. BEFORE the fact, person is ignored, because if the problem is solved before the fact, nobody would make MONEY. But really from my perspective, there is no difference. Because of the constant instability, stress, psychological abuse and DENIAL OF GOOD EXPECTATIONS constantly being denied, there is an automatic aging before ones time, which affects the person's health, and just about sucks the life out of the person, which can be witnessed in any true African American community. Personnally I have been looking and expecting doors to GOOD positive things in my life; like the kind that white people expect.

And if I had to sum it up I guess the "DENIAL OF GOOD EXPECTATIONS" in life regarding everyday occurrences, being constantly denied, would have to be the biggest one. Most people can't understand a person not receiving certain services; it's like talking a foreign language. For example, told a cousin that I was denied service in some way and they said, "THEY CAN"T DO THAT." And again I told them that they denied me service, but noone seems to want to address the fact of what the abuse. And being that the individual is kept in isolation from others/family and friends,they are left vulnerable to more abuse. They couldn't get there. And to spend your life,(which is another angle) of constantly doing things that it take one person twenty minutes to do is very discouraging; it makes you feel retarded.

Thus being that everything that I write on the Internet is being read and used(three movies have been made); hopefully someone will give the opposite to innocent people someday. Heard someone say, that SOMEDAY, we will live in a nicer society. The other thing is that anyone who wants to witness what I am talking about, please visit an true African American community which a check off list. (99.99% know what is happening to them, but they don't know why or have a clue). It's like living on another planet with no connection to earth. Guess fortunately I have a slight understanding on some level of why the abuse, torture and torment by the local community and church leaders.


Standing at work the other day, white male=?? came by said I looked despondant. Told him it was nice of him to notice. I have tried to tell people, I am not getting with what they are trying to do to me. Then he said, yeah a lot of things occur in life that they say they don't have no idea about; but they know.

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